my parents blind
from the dust, bowl shaped scars carved
in their skin. The earth sieved
through the roof when the storm ended
the drought. They needed me
to leave forever. They shook my hand,
my long stalk trembling
in the night wind. I didn’t know a child
could leave home alone.
I didn’t know a mother could hurt herself,
that blood was not thick enough
to bind. I saw a raw fire bloom
across her face,
my father’s palm quick to snuff it out.
I joined the circus:
the girl with the monkey tail, amputated
legs. I swung on elephant
trunks, got paid in bananas. Me Jane, You Tarzan,
I squealed. Little girls
in mother’s pearls cried for me. Fashioned legs
out of lime
popsicle sticks, sat under the canopy of my long
brown hair. They named me
Charity. Their grandfather’s clocks ticked
seconds in hallways.
I learned that love requires a hammer
and a feather pillow.
I learned the weight of a doll’s house
under my fingertips.